Inner Cow

By Niya Christine. Copyright

#112/365 Paintings

In my late 20’s I was a workshop fiend. Anywhere a group of people gathered in the name of finding oneself, I was all over it. Once in meditation, a particular group leader asked us to say hello to the inner child. All I saw was a cow. I tried again. Nothing. Just the cow. Of course I thought I was dealing with some embarrassment about being 10 lbs overweight. But this cow was grazing about, munching on hay. At one point she laid down in the sun and scratched her head on her neighbors rump. She curiously poked her head through the fence and got caught, a neighbor came by and helped. I watched this movie for awhile. Very pleasant.  When I shared about my inner cow, the group was very helpful (after a good laugh and challenging questions about my avoidance of course). After much discussion the workshop leader thought I needed a break from my current work situation. A sabbatical — to rest and be curious and laze about, soak up the sun, perhaps go to Europe, fall in love, take photos of a few pigeons, let people help me more, etc. Okie, dokie. Great assessment.

Does anyone else have an inner cow? Care to share? I promise not to laugh! Okay, maybe a little.

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  • WM Rine April 22, 2013  

    I think your inner cow has the perfect situation. Sitting inside the beautiful and bright walls of her house. People stop and admire the beautiful walls and are grateful for them so they don’t bother that sweet and shy cow inside. And she has the perfect view on the world.

    I once did a meditation where the image that emerged was of an owl, sitting up on a telephone pole in the light of a full moon, looking out on the world, seeing all of the things that are missed during the light of the day.

    My inner social side is a wolf … I don’t have a story for that one. Guess I need to go to a workshop …

  • niya christine April 24, 2013  

    Oooohh… I can so see it Will. Your inner owl and wolf. It makes so much sense.